vent ig?

[jungwonstrannybf]

general tws: possible sh? ed , depression ,

though im not really on this site much as i've generally lost interest in trying to be active here i just thought i would make this to put my thoughts down somewhere. im not close with anybody here im aware and probably nobody cares about this stupid shit' but yeah :[

recently ive felt as though i've been in a slump that everyday is the same waking up going to school coming home to being absolutely nobody that anybody cares about and its hard. i keep thinking and seeing my exes and my ex bsf sm and it hurts bad and i feel like a part of me can't move on. a few months ago i fully relasped for the frst time in about 3 years and for once in a long time i felt something. my weight has been the topic of many jokes and it just isn't funny. i try so hard not to eat so ican look pretty but i keep getting gaslighted and manipulated into eating and it makes me sick. i dont know who i am anymore and im so very stuck.

[jungwonstrannybf]

branching off of this i feel like such a horrible boyfriend to my girlfriend because i simply can not open up and it scares me to death the idea of opening up and her leaving me just like my ex and im so scared of losing her because she is really all i have left and i dont wanna be alone again ive been alone for 17 years and im so tired

[Felixa Lee]

i know what your going through, i have anorexia, im 76 pounds at 15, 16 in 2 months, i was bullied into a relationship before i got married, my bully made me think i loved him, and then would beat me up. all of the time, abusive parents who i witnessed getting killed last week, honestly, i know how you feel, i always feel like im in a slump too, like, im not going anywhere, but, it does get better, it will get better for you, im married and have a job and im a teen, if it worked out for trash like me, it'll work out for an amazing person like you, dont give up, i mean, i lost my brother to suicide lat month, twin brother he was older by 6 minutes i think, it will get better, and you will find someone, i wish you success and happiness in life, gday mate. .

[kedamohno]

@jungwonstrannybf i feel u venting here cus u feel like there's nowhere else to we don't think it's stupid and i really do hope you feel better, your situation sounds so hard but i believe in u and i know you are capable of feeling better and living happily. that probably sounds dumb but rly i hope u feel better

[jungwonstrannybf]

@kedamohno

i appreciate that sm :(( ty for your kind words they mean a lot to me

[Felixa Lee]

no probsies .

[LTempral]

i miss u
i know how u feel bro.
dysphoria is hard to deal with but i know you have what it takes.
Not eating isn't the solution. The best and fastest solution is a keto diet.

[LTempral]

School can be very awkward sometimes. The key is to think of whatever mistakes you make that screw up ur relationships as learning experiences. That's what I did, and I'm doing A-Okay!
You can do it!