Anonymous vent
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I made an anonymous account on here because nobody would want to listen if they knew who I was. It seems nobody takes me serious any more and i think i might really be cursed.
For as long as i can remember I've been trying to make things right with them but over and over again do they remind me you can never change your image in another person's mind. This month hit me particularly hard as my family seems to have turned on me as well. I've spent years being the odd one out of the family and friend group however I've spent double that time giving my all just to make them happy. i gave my soul for them and all i got in return was being thrown around and criticized until I fell into this depression.
Last Saturday/Sunday night I thought I was finally accepted. It was 2am we were all talking but the focus was on me specifically that night, we laughed together and they loved me more then I'd ever known. The very next morning I was once again an outcast they ignored my messages and continued to push me away. No matter what, I put them first, when I was in the way I stepped away and released I was irrelevant but last Saturday shook me up so much I had considered doing the unthinkable every day since. I feel it's the world against me and I want this to end so badly. Ironically my ex talks to me more than my family and "friends" combined even though she only does it to be polite. God bless if you read this far, thank you.
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No and who I am shouldn't be important. I'm just trying to get some honest support and hopefully move on with life.
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@Anonymous_01 i just wanna know who you are, i wanna help
