music opinion: melanie martinez + fans (kinda a rant + personal update)

[Ellyzien]

i've been listening to melanie martinez since my pre-teens, so since 2015.

so, since melanie martinez has released her new album 'PORTALS', i've been listening to her more again. as a matter of fact, on repeat. as i'm speaking she is playing in my headphones lol. she's mostly all i've been listening to for like a month, since i'm kinda tired of most other artists or singles.

i originally took a break for her for a few months because i got burnt out and a lot of the new fans are just... yeah...

I don't know about most of the album... some of the songs are odd... well all of them are, that's just who she is, shes out of the box and that's why i like her. the point i'm making is, some of them are just beyond odd LOL! specifically, like the ones about women and our... cycles.

I do like how the entire album is like her being reborn and taking vengeance on what has pained her.

'crybaby' was about pain and vulnerability. 'k-12' was about how the world shapes us and expects us to be. 'after school' was about self reflection and loving. lastly, like i said, 'portals' is about being reborn or starting over, and taking revenge on pain, and not letting it define you. also at the same time though, 'portals' seems to really be about anger in general, i mean given its about revenge, but still. or... at least in all my time of listening to her, that's what i've taken them to be, but to each their own.

i feel like recently her music has really spoken to me in my life currently, especially portals and after school. well, all of her music, because i've been really hurt, but i'm coming into this certain specific phase in my life where as she says in 'fire drill', "i am not a part of anything that is hateful. i don't hold anger anymore. love is seeping out my pores, even for people who hurt and betray me". i'm taking revenge on what has pained me, at the same time as only trying to be love and grace itself. It sounds pretty contradictory, but in my head it makes sense, and it's basically like a self growth/self love phase.

ANYWAYS,
that's not why i'm writing all this. i'm writing this to recommend my newest favorite 'PORTALS' songs, and also sprinkling in a few opinions.

so, #1 - A) tierra whack ruins 'copy cat',
like take her out of it man. she kills the whole vibe of the song. why is she in the official song? and why is that the only version? it's a d**n feature. SHE'S FEATURED. IT'S A COLLAB, and it's only like 30 seconds might i add. most artists have like 2, maybe 3 versions of their songs. an original with just them, unaltered, so probably explicit. a clean version. then a version where they collab-ed with someone IF they did. she's recognized enough to be able to do that, so take TIERRA WHACK OUT, or make a version WITHOUT HER. PLEASE it's alright though, it's her creative decision. i hope there is a version without tierra on youtube tho lol.

#1 - B) i don't know if people would agree because i don't really associate with most melanie fans. the reason being, most og fans have basically ditched the entire "fandom", so to speak, just as i had. that having been said, to my knowledge, most active listeners are newer fans. im talkin toxic tik tok fans surplus in like 2020 or 2021 because of edits. im very happy that she is getting so much recognition, but the newer fans are kinda rabid with how they treat other fans not all of them, but a good most.

#2), i just want to recommend my favorite songs from 'portals', just cuz. kinda in order, but maybe not.

• nymphology
• evil
• contortionist
• death
• powder
• pluto
• spider web

okay, yeah that's all, thanks xD